My HIV Diary: You Must Be Thankful, Week 12
Ryan Dixon (a.k.a former porn star Kameron Scott) has started taking HIV medication. He’s keeping a diary of his experience.
Being in my mid-20’s isn’t easy, add HIV on top of that and we have one hell of a complicated life. I’m making the best out of the hand life has dealt me and the decisions I’ve made along the way. Writing helps free my mind. Hopefully these words will help you understand the plight of others like myself, and inspire you to live each and every day in the moment.
Week 12 (Nov. 19 – Nov. 25)
Thanksgiving marked day 85 on my HIV medication. I’m approaching the mark in the study when I’ll be switching from Truvada to another medication. Heading into the home stretch of the first three months of this study, I’m satisfied with the results of the medicine, but I’m still bothered by the side effects of the pills. We still don’t know if my stomach issues are from the medicine or something more serious and internal.
It may sound silly, but I am very thankful for now having a boyfriend beside me. I’m a baby when it comes to not feeling well, and to have someone there who knows exactly what I’m going through eases my mind. It’s mostly just me complaining over text messages or being attention hungry when we’re together, but he’s been more than accommodating to me. Feeling love returned to me when I’m usually the one going so far out of my way to please a person is something new to me. I have to be the luckiest guy in the world right now. I’ve met a guy who knows everything there is to know about what I’m going through because he is also positive. He’s definitely taken a lot of stress out of my life.
My friends have always been my back bone the last four years. Their constant love a support that I haven’t received from home has made struggling to keep my head up so much easier and rewarding.
Bob Keceskemety and John and Kevin Reed helped me with a place to stay when I needed a couch.
Norm Kent gave me a new job when he knew I had nothing but disappointments and stress in my previous workplace. Countless others have been there just to give me a hug or just an ear to talk off. My family is so large now, and full of so many amazing men and women (I love you Dawn).
Stress affects everyone in different ways. Me, I tend to get an upset stomach when I’m upset or stressed out. With the heightened complications my stomach has been having due to the medication, a stress free life is important.
So thank you friends and readers.